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Its written, No eye has seen. no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him-but God has revealed it to us by his Spirit. 1-cor 2;9,10
I'm in middle school now, and everything is new in this stage of life. Fighting for my identity, and pressured by the cares of this world. New school, new friends, new teachers, new boyfriends. Thirteen and already I was smoking weed and drinking. So naturally I had sex with a guy, and there goes my virginity. I thought I had fallen in love, but it was lust at work, I knew nothing about love at this age. Only my heart was beginning to harden with my little secret. Other black and Mexican students were beginning to be bused in from other areas, and they didn't like me because i hung out with white kids. It seem like I was in a fight every month. must of the time, it was after school, so no adults knew. Now I have a reputation of being a tough girl. better than a cry baby. It was working for me,and by the time I got in High-school,most of the older kids knew me well. 1cor 1;9 God who has called you into fellowship with his Son Jesus Christ our Lord, is faithful.
Now I'm driving, working half a day, and moon-lighting at night selling pounds and bags of dope, rolling in the money. My Brother was my supplier. Of course my mother never knew and Thank God I was never cough. This is an interesting thing, or should I say Gods plan. There was a girl who only knew of me from our science class, and one day she boldly asked me if i knew Jesus. I said, Jesus, yea I know Jesus he's the one who died for my sin's that I would have eternal life and never parish. She was shocked at what I said and asked if I would like to go to a youth rally on Wednesday night. I had quoted John 3;16. At the youth rally I asked Jesus Christ to come into my heart and be Lord of my life. I remember crying,but joyfully. My new friend was a christian and she was a light to my world. Her family represented love and mercy to me. But because I had no one to disciple me in the things of God, I got way off track, and became a bad influence on my friend. Satin came at me hard and my life began a journey like none I ever wanted to see or do. There is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it leads to death. Pr.14;12
Grace and Peace to you from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ