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Its written, No eye has seen. no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him-but God has revealed it to us by his Spirit. 1-cor 2;9,10
I'm in middle school now, and everything is new in this stage of life. Fighting for my identity, and pressured by the cares of this world. New school, new friends, new teachers, new boyfriends. Thirteen and already I was smoking weed and drinking. So naturally I had sex with a guy, and there goes my virginity. I thought I had fallen in love, but it was lust at work, I knew nothing about love at this age. Only my heart was beginning to harden with my little secret. Other black and Mexican students were beginning to be bused in from other areas, and they didn't like me because i hung out with white kids. It seem like I was in a fight every month. must of the time, it was after school, so no adults knew. Now I have a reputation of being a tough girl. better than a cry baby. It was working for me,and by the time I got in High-school,most of the older kids knew me well. 1cor 1;9 God who has called you into fellowship with his Son Jesus Christ our Lord, is faithful.
Now I'm driving, working half a day, and moon-lighting at night selling pounds and bags of dope, rolling in the money. My Brother was my supplier. Of course my mother never knew and Thank God I was never cough. This is an interesting thing, or should I say Gods plan. There was a girl who only knew of me from our science class, and one day she boldly asked me if i knew Jesus. I said, Jesus, yea I know Jesus he's the one who died for my sin's that I would have eternal life and never parish. She was shocked at what I said and asked if I would like to go to a youth rally on Wednesday night. I had quoted John 3;16. At the youth rally I asked Jesus Christ to come into my heart and be Lord of my life. I remember crying,but joyfully. My new friend was a christian and she was a light to my world. Her family represented love and mercy to me. But because I had no one to disciple me in the things of God, I got way off track, and became a bad influence on my friend. Satin came at me hard and my life began a journey like none I ever wanted to see or do. There is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it leads to death. Pr.14;12
Grace and Peace to you from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ

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As a child, I grew up in the Dallas projects, until 1st grade. It was also around that time that my father and mother divorced and we moved into a gray house for rent by my mothers good friend (Celia). I was in 2ND grade when a boy from the neighborhood took me into a old garage and sexually assaulted me. I never told anyone,and I don't remember much about that day. There has to be angles watching over God's little children, because I'm here.
During that time as alittle girl, when my mother was out and left me with the neighbor's to watch me and spend the night till morning,to young to understand,the young girl of that family would touch me and kiss on my face, I was scared and would hide in the closet, so they couldn't find me. Waiting for my mother to come,and Thank God she did. I never told. For it is written remember not the former things or the things of old, for behold God will do a new thing, shall you not know it, it shall spring forth. Change is good. Trust God for change.
In the third grade,she moved us in a pink house to a place called Pleasant Grove. It was my mother's first house. But we were challenged by neighbors as we were one of the first Spanish family's in the area, alot of the kids picked on me at school and at home, and that made me cry alot, but then one day, after a year or so, that all stoped when I began to take up for myself. There was so much peir presser, to be like them and I remember my heart turning cold but I made friends, and as time went on , I became a bully to some of the kids in my school. I was skipping school in the 3rd grade and began smoking in the 5th or 6th, and it didnt stop there I was always in trouble for something at home, and even got caught stealing from a store. My mother would blame my sister for everything that I did because she was supost to take care of me while our mother was working 2 and 3 job's. I was what you would call a latch key kid.You know the kid who has the key to there house safty pin to there pants. Because of me, my sister and I got our ass wiped hard. I'm sure my sister, being 2 years older then me either resented me or forgave me for what my mother did. I love my sister who my grandparents raised until the 7th grade,thats when my mother brought her home to live with us. Sylvia was devastated leaving the only mom and dad she knew at that time. And came to an unstable and many times unloving home. To be continued, And may the God of peace be with you. Amen

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Dear Reader,
I glory in Christ Jesus in my service to God. I will not venture to speck of anything except what Christ has accomplished through me in leading you to obey God by what I will say and done through the power of the spirit. It has always been my ambition to preach the gospel where Christ was not known, so that I would not be building on someone else's foundation. It is written: Those who were not told about him will see,and those who have not heard will understand. Ro.15:21
Pray, so that by God's will I may come to you with joy and together with you be refreshed. To the only wise God be glory forever through Jesus Christ! Amen
As I come into your heart with these words in hope to increase life to you through the light in me, I pray you will be able to forgive me of my sin's in the past,but if not I pray that forgiveness will find you where you are.I tell you the truth, LOVE does no harm to its neighbor. Therefore love is the fulfillment of the law. Ro.13:10 Sing with me, Amazing grace! how sweet the sound, That saved a wretch like me! I once was lost, but now am found, Was Blind, but now I see.
I'm grateful you have taken time out of your day to be with me. I am now a hair revivalist, and this is my journey from hell to hair to heaven on earth. God's peace be with you. Amen